Learning to Roll
I used to go to a little playspot to teach myself how to kayak. As I got better I'd try ferrying through a really strong current. The current was by far the fastest I'd been in and flipping was pretty likely. I was nervous about ferrying at that spot because the recovery area didn't look very large before flowing over a rock to form a small hole.
One day I was working on my ferry and flipped. I couldn't get set-up properly and I knew I was getting carried towards the rock so I tried the roll anyway. It didn't work, but I saw there was time for another attempt. I couldn't get set-up properly and I was so worried about hitting the rock while upside-down that I decided to try again without waiting. The roll didn't work (of course), so I popped my squirt and ejected from the boat.
My head broke the water upstream of the boat and I had just enough time to realize I was going head-first over the rock. My boat stopped in the hole so I smacked my face on the boat, getting a fat and slightly bloody lip.
I got to shore and was a little shaken-up. I thought about what happened and realized that the recovery zone had plenty of time. The cause of my problem was that I'd let my fears rush my roll when I should have waited until my paddle was in the correct position. I decided I'd try it again, but this time if I flipped I'd focus on waiting until everthing felt 'right'. For me, that meant my right hand had to break the surface of the water before I did anything else. Since I knew there was plenty of time for a good roll (or two poor attempts), I new I could safely ignore my fears and the mental voice which said, "You've been under a really long time and you need to get upright before you hit that rock which is coming".
I re-tried the ferry and I flipped. This time I knew it was safe to ignore my fears so I waited WAY longer than I wanted. My right hand finally got into position, I tried, and was up-right. When looking around, I had plenty of time before hitting the rock. It reaffirmed the importance of getting a good roll the first time and waiting as long as necessary.
That event was a major breakthrough for me.
Drew