We were at the scene of the death of a young man on Westwater last year. It was tough. We did everything one could do to save him, assuming he was savable (with the endless supply of people to help) until the pros arrived to say otherwise. We found solice in going to the candlelight vigil his highschool friends arranged. There we got to know him - as we hadn't met before. There was comfort in learning a little about him, and celebrating the life he lived. None-the-less I still acknowledge Tim Rau every time I put on Westwater, including last Saturday.
A word of advice though, is to be extra careful and take it easy for a while. When your thoughts are dwelling on death you are distracted, and at risk for an accident yourself. Be kind to yourself, let yourself mourn. Find strength in weakness. There is no good way to "cash in the chips" and a death near makes that apparent.