no need to be sorry GH you didnt do anything wrong. And thanks for wishing me luck. if i don't make the recovery i want, oh well i gave it a shot, and it'll work out regardless, there a people in much worse positions then i'm in. As a matter of fact i know an older lady who is in PT who got hit by a drunk drivr, got ejected, and she had to have whats called a live grapht. they cut a flap of skin off your belly, and sew your hand to your belly... Well shes doing great, and she asked the judge to be leniant with him. And well Tony's injury is worse then mine as well. I read a while ago that what happens is 10% but 90% is how you take it, some people its easy to get down, i guess but that doesnt solve any thing. i'm going to make it work no matter what, and i've seen it in kayakers especially. i paddle with a guy that lost his leg to the point he couldnt get a prostethic so he put ballast in his bow to compensate. My buddy broke both ankles and the second he got out into his soft boots he was out creeking. life happens, and you deal with it, i guess?